I Want To Write

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I want to write, but ideally I don’t want to present you with repeated and recycled bullshit that I’ve seen online, and endless lists of things people don’t really care about purely to get ‘views’.
I want to write, but not be the kind of writer that is rude and/or judgemental of people who really don’t deserve it, again, purely to get attention or views online and in print.
I want to write, and not have to care about how well a piece of work is received or spread, because spending the entire creative process of writing it worrying how people are going to percieve and view it defeats the entire purpose of expressing my thoughts in the first place. The second I let a thought concerning other people’s opinions of my work enter my head, it no longer belongs to me. It has been tainted.
I want to write because I feel it is my way of communicating with the world, of putting some sort of solidity on the blinks and glances of thoughts that flit through my brain on a daily basis as I move from place to place, and possibly to make some sense of the more ambiguous ones; to really break them down in order to be able to put them all together again.

I want to write because I want to understand. I want to learn from what I see around me, I want to be able to structure some solid opinions and views on the world that are just not possible for me to clarify without writing them down.
I want to write to be able to support myself and feel a sense of fulfillment; to ensure I am able to travel around and see all there is to see, learn what there is to learn, and write about it while I go.
I want to write because I want to travel, and I feel that pictures can only capture the brink of what it really is to experience a new culture; a new country; a new climate or timezone.
I want to write because writing for me feels as natural as breathing, and having nothing and nowhere to write about is as suffocating as sitting at an office desk where the windows don’t open and the heating is stuck on high in the middle of Summer.

I want to be a writer, and I’m not going to pretend I haven’t bought into the current trends of trying to write ‘hilarious’ reviews with catchy or crude headlines, or pieces that will go viral online and receive a high readership – because I have. I’ve tried to write things people will find entertaining, interesting, insightful even. And sometimes I’ve succeeded. But where my heart truly lies, and it’s taken me a while to figure this out – is in movement, travel, and observing the world around me as I go. Staying still prevents the flow of words that comes like a torrent of ideas, emotions, and possibilities whenever I step foot into the world outside my door, whether it’s on board a plane, boat, train, bus; anything.
I want to write, and I will always continue to write and recount life experiences I have around the world, regardless if I ever eventually make it to Bali, Tokyo, or the Amazon. Anywhere will do. I just need to be moving. I need to be in motion for the channels of inspiration and structure to work together and allow me to produce something that makes sense.
I want to write, but I also want to travel, and the World is my destination.

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One thought on “I Want To Write

  1. Hi Jenny, why not write about what / who inspires you…..
    in my case….my mum was born near Killamery, went to the England at the age of about 7, back in the early 1940’s. …many years later, I had the urge to visit the places where she grew up (and other parts of Eire) and did so in 2010 at the age of 54 (yep, I’m an old fart!). Not long after that, I came across a TG Lurgan video clip (Tóg amach mé)….. And I was hooked!, since then, I have enjoyed many TG Lurgan clips, including many where you feature….(I particularly like “Angel of Small Death)
    The point of this very brief history, is that, partly as a desire to honour my heritage, In part because I enjoy playing Irish music on the piano accordion, I have been inspired by these you tube clips to take up learning Gaelic! So that I can have a go at singing in Gaelic…
    I’m only a few weeks in to “lessons” – I came across a lady I met through involvement in theatre (Wagga Wagga school of arts community theatre), who is a teacher, spoke gaelic etc….and am really enjoying it.
    So, it’s surprising where inspiration can lead you!

    Maidir chineál

    Bob Hitchens

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